December 13, 2013

Regretful Writing

So I've been at this blogging gig for a while now.  Some of you have been with me since the beginning and others I've picked up along the way.  I am thankful for each and every person who reads and comments on this blog and to those who send me emails privately telling me that I, little ole me, make you feel better or normal or like your at least not the only person out there who thinks/feels a certain way.  To those of you who have followed since day one, I don't know why you started following but thank you for sticking around.

I go back through some of my older posts and I cringe.  Seriously, what were you people doing clicking that 'follow' button. That stuff was garbage and the way I typed, oy!  I liked to emphasis words by using the CAPS lock AND SETTING MY FONT TO THE LARGEST SETTING.  Seriously, how annoying is that to read?  So for those of you that read through all that B.S.  You are the true rock stars and THANK YOU {CAPS lock style}.

Some of my posts were a bit TMI, like the time I talked about going off of birth control.  OMG I am so sorry for that post.  I seriously contemplated deleting it altogether but then I thought, "nah it's part of my history, I'll leave it."  But for real, you guys did not deserve that.

There's been lots of talk about wine on this blog, along with other adult beverages, and that has gotten me labeled a drunk.  It's fine, I like wine.  I like to have a glass with dinner or after the babies are in bed and I'm relaxing with my husband, so shoot me.  I don't drink it every day, I don't need it, and I certainly am not getting drunk.  So a drunk?  I think that's a bit far fetched.

Then there were all my posts where I talk about only having on child.  I mean fine, that's where we stood at the time, but holy grump-fest.  Those posts are so Negative Nancy and wishy-washy I even have a hard time figuring out what I was talking about.  Clearly I was not 100% Team Only Child or else I would have been able to form a clear thought in at least one of those posts.

I got some slack when I posted about Kendall potty training and how I am embarrassing her in the future.  And, while you might be right, I like to think that I'm raising my child to have a sense of humor too.  I really doubt she's going to need therapy for her mom talking about her potty training adventures from when she was two-and-a-half.  But, maybe I'm wrong?

My 31 Days posts always seem to get a lot of negative feedback, I guess because they are pretty raw and real?  People thought I was a slave to my husband last year with my 31 Days of Being a Better Wife.  I can assure you, that is not the case and we have a very fair relationship.  This year they thought I was a bad mom because I was on my journey to having more patience.  These posts were about me trying to be a better person and that always comes with some sort of self discovery and, for that, I will not apologize.

All of these posts/types of posts have their cringe-worthy moments.  Some of them I wish I could erase and then I remember that whatever you say on the Internet stays there forever so why bother?  Others are just me, raw, honest, and real.  If there is one thing that I hope people know about me and this blog is that I will always be genuine and will not sugar coat anything.  I think that's what makes this place so easy to relate too and that will never change.  I am, however, glad that I have learned to tame some things down, stop over-sharing, and, for God sake, to quit using the extra large font.

Are there any posts you regret writing or wish you could delete from cyberspace forever?

13 comments:

  1. love your blog and all your honest posts :)

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  2. i love your blog and honesty -- that is what makes your blog likable and fun to read -- because more times than not i am nodding/laughing/cringing in total agreement! i rarely read back on prior blog posts just for this reason --regret! but it was my life in that moment -- raw, honest and real! own it girl and forget the naysayers! you rock! wait YOU ROCK!

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  3. I wrote in my blog a lot before and after my husband deployed. I go back and re-read the posts from before and I think how naive and innocent I was. Sometimes I get embarrassed of the things I've written but then I think about how much I have grown since then and it's a nice reminder :) I'm a recent follower of your blog and can't wait to read more!

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  4. I need to go back through my old posts and clean out! I'm loving your more recent posts though :)

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  5. Lol if you are a drunk slave to your husband bad mom then we all are and there are some WAY worse people in the world.

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  6. I want to say thank you for always keeping in real. I don't blog but I really enjoy your posts. I found you from the 30 day ab challenge and have continued to read since.

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  7. I want to say thank you for always keeping in real. I don't blog but I really enjoy your posts. I found you from the 30 day ab challenge and have continued to read since.

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  8. I want to say thank you for always keeping in real. I don't blog but I really enjoy your posts. I found you from the 30 day ab challenge and have continued to read since.

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  9. I love your posts. I love how real you are. I like the honesty- sometimes it keeps me in check. As long as your writing I will be following, that sounded kinda stalker-ish. I have went through my past posts before I use to do a lot of this.......
    I still do but not as much.

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  10. I'm not sure I regret them...I mean its where we were at the time right? I've also censored myself a lot anyway because I know my family reads it lol. And they will tell my mom. And she is scary.

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  11. I actually have deleted some old posts from the past because they are irrelevant and sort of don't make sense now!

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  12. What is it with bloggers and their insistence that any negative feedback they get is only because they are so "raw and real"? Your 31 Days posts get lots of negative comments because they're stupid. They're not "raw;" they're moronic.

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  13. I think we all have posts that we look back and are like "OMG...I wrote that?" but in the end it is part of our journey, it was who we were and how we felt at that moment and we should never apologize for them. Life is about growth so in a way, those posts should serve to remind us of how far we have come!

    Kate @ Raising the Rogers

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