February 10, 2016

SO WHAT! Wednesday

This week I'm saying SO WHAT if...

  • I made a birthday wishlist. I know I'm approaching 33 but when the moms ask, moms get.
  • We bake cookies at least once a week in our house. 
  • I made spa water this weekend in hopes of it willing spring.
  • I hate that Olivia {The Bachelor} was on my top 3 list on week one.  What a nut case.  See ya on BIP.
  • Speaking of The Bachelor, I have a girl crush on Becca. Did I say that last week?  
  • I bought James new pacifiers today even though we should probably be on the verge of taking it away from him altogether.
  • I kinda want Wendy's chili for dinner tonight.
  • I don't like Quest bars.  Gross. There, I said it.
  • I'm started taking prenatal vitamins to help my hair grow faster and I truly believe it's working.
  • I was kind of hoping for a snow day {for Kendall} today.  
  • I'm kind of, sort of obsessed with this whole macro thing. I'm eating WAY more food and I've lost weight doing it {and I'm not even doing it to a T}.  Blows my mind.
  • I'm obsessed, OBSESSED with my coconut cotton scent bar from Scentsy.  
  • I prefer Panera's coffee to Starbucks.  Especially the hazelnut...mmm...
  • I can't believe they made Zoolander 2.  Was the first one really that good that they needed to make a sequel!?
  • We do store-bought Valentine's cards.  No Pinterest stuff going on over here.
What are you saying SO WHAT to this week?

February 8, 2016


Patience is not my strong suit.  You may remember my 31 days of patience series I did two years ago in hopes of becoming a more patient wife/mother.  I'd love to say that I learned lessons during that month that lasted me a lifetime but sadly I slipped back into my old ways.  Yesterday, specifically,  I let my lack of patience get the best of me and it came out in the form of screaming at my kids to the point, I'm sure, I looked like the exorcist, minus the head spinning.

I woke up with a great attitude.  I woke up early {6am} and thought about going back to sleep since everyone else was still snoozing peacefully but instead opted to get some coffee and some yoga in before the day started.  Sounded like a great idea but maybe that was my first mistake, maybe I should have just gone back to sleep {ha!}.  I wasn't quite done with my practice when Kendall got up and then from that moment on it just seemed like everything went down hill.  To the point Jimmy even said, "man, we are really being tested today".  And we were.

I told Jimmy, "I need Jesus today" and I knew whether I went alone and he stayed home with the crazy kids or we all went as a family, I was going to church.  We made it {barely on time} and that's when God took over...

I really felt my faith grow this past year and I am so thankful for our church and the community within.  I've participated in three bible studies within the year as well as started my own devotional at home.  The last year, 2015, was a hard one in a number of ways but I felt God stronger than ever through it it all and that was amazing.  I went through a period, during my teens and early twenties, where I didn't really believe in God.  I had no relationship with him, didn't belong to a church and it was so hard for me to even grasp the concept of faith because it wasn't tangible.  I didn't have concrete evidence, I couldn't see Him and therefore I just chose not to believe.

When I met Jimmy I attended a church service with his family and I felt all the emotions.  I cried.  I had never been to a church where I felt so "normal" and things made sense and were *gasp* relate-able.  I had never felt that way in a church and it felt amazing.  That church wasn't in a good location for us to attend on a weekly basis but I knew what I wanted in our home church.

I've been thinking of getting baptized for months. My family was catholic and I was baptized catholic when I was only a couple of months old.  I don't remember it.  It meant nothing to me {at the time}.  I didn't understand what was happening to me.  Now that I am an adult and I have built a relationship with God and I am {hopefully} raising my kids to have strong faith, pray, and believe I figured it was time to make the next move in my relationship.

I've been talking about getting baptized but for some reason I can never bring myself to sign up when our church has them.  The last time we had baptisms I said to myself, "the next time there's a sign up I'm going to do it".  Yesterday, amidst the chaos of the morning, I noticed that there was a baptism sign-up and that the actual baptism would be happening on Feb. 28.  My 33rd birthday.

If that's not a God moment, I don't know what is.  I immediately started praying.  I told God that I heard Him loud and clear and that I would obey.  I know He was speaking to me and I know that He knew I needed that right then and there.  That's the reason I never signed up before.  It wasn't the right time but now is.  This was a lesson in patience and I didn't even know it.  He was telling me to be patient and He would let me know when it was the right time.  I thought it was just be being lazy and scared but it was really a teaching moment, one that I needed.

I'm excited and nervous about this next step in my relationship with God.  I am excited to watch my faith grow deeper but I am nervous because I don't want to let Him down.   I know this is going to change everything and I am ready for it to.

February 3, 2016

SO WHAT! Wednesday

This week I'm saying SO WHAT if...

  • I wrote two, back-to-back, sappy posts about my kids getting older.  
  • I accidentally blamed Chipotle for a {less than} 24 stomach bug.  Sorry Chipotle, I still have mad love for you!
  • I just caught on to the AE high rise jegging trend and OMG why did I wait so long?!  Amaze.
  • I'm a little bit, ok a lot a bit, obsessed with this season of The Bachelor.  I don't know why, maybe its because I think Ben is he best bachelor, maybe it's because I want to see when Olivia finally cracks and maybe it's because I have a slight girl crush on Becca.
  • We will not be doing anything for The Super Bowl.
  • I think I'm more excited than Kendall to go to Disney on Ice tomorrow.  
  • Every morning that I pack Kendall's lunch I have an "OMG I'm a real mom" moment.
  • I laugh every time I catch James watching TV with his hand down his diaper {Al Bundy style}.
  • I fully intend on a deep spring cleaning including, but not limited to, changing all my Scentsy warmers to spring scents!  It is going to be nearly 60 today!
  • I am so over homework that involves cutting. All the tiny papers everywhere.
  • I have the windows open at 60 degrees!  Feels amazing!
  • 60 degrees feels like summer to me.
  • I'm scared for the day James stops napping. I think it'll be a while because he LOVES {and needs} a nap still.  

What are you saying SO WHAT this week?

February 1, 2016

Bye-Bye Baby

I remember the moment I first started to notice Kendall's baby-ness going away.  I remember, vividly, rocking her in her glider {now James's glider} and noticing the tiny creases slowly filling in on her wrists.  Her knuckles no longer resembled dimples.  Her sweet little pot-belly looking more lean.  I soaked that last bit of baby-ness up like a sponge to water.

It actually feels like that moment was just seconds ago but, sadly, it's been about two years.

Two years and now it's James's turn and it's happening.  All of the sudden I looked at him and it was like, "whoa, he's a little boy".  He loses his baby face each day.  One of my favorite features on him is his teeth {weird} and his whole life you really haven't been able to see them thanks to his chubby cheeks. Now that his face is maturing and thinning out you can see his teeth a little more now.  Once he got a big boy haircut I pretty much said goodbye to any bit of baby looks he had left.  What is it about a haircut?

The older he gets the more independent he's becoming {as is true with most kids}.  He doesn't like to be rocked to sleep anymore, a milestone I always dread.  Except today was different. He wasn't convinced that he was tired {thanks to big sister barging into his room with a cupcake in her hand} but he almost fell asleep on the way home from church so a nap was in order.  This time he let me rock him.  He laid his big boy head right on my shoulder and wrapped his arms and legs around me so tight as to say, "please don't let me go, mommy".  I jumped at the chance to rock my baby and as I did I felt the baby-ness once more.

Although his little body is so long and heavy.  Even though it takes both of my arms, under his butt, to hold him.  In that moment he was still my baby and he needed me.  He snuggled right into my chest and tucked his little arms underneath the weight of his body and he was still.  I felt his skin, still so baby soft.  I rubbed his back and sniffed his head {which doesn't smell like a baby anymore}.

Pretty soon I won't see even the slightest trace of baby left in him.  Sooner or later he's going to be all boy, even more so than he already is.  I have such a love/hate relationship with this stage.  I love watching them become the little people they are destined to be.  I hate saying good-bye to my babies.
Tonight I think I'll study him extra hard.  Notice all his fine lines, his dimples, his creases.  I might give him a bath and lather him with baby lotion, the same lotion I used when he was just months old.  Would that be weird?

"The cleaning and scrubbing will wait till tomorrow, For children grow up, as I’ve learned to my sorrow.  So quiet down, cobwebs. Dust go to sleep.  I’m rocking my baby and babies don’t keep."

    January 29, 2016

    There Goes My Heart

    One would think that almost six months into this Kindergarten business it would seem like life as usual.  Monday, Wednesday and Friday I take my oldest down the street to her elementary building.  I kiss her good-bye, I tell her to have a great day and that I can't wait to see her when I pick her up. Everyday I sit in that car-rider line and wait until she is completely in the building before I pull my truck away from the curb.  And it's been this way since August 28, 2105.

    Every day when I watch her step out of that door and head up the sidewalk to her building I lose a piece of my heart.

    First of all she still looks so tiny, she is so tiny.  Her backpack is almost as big as she is yet there she is, independently walking herself to her locker to unload her homework, hang up her coat and back pack and head to her class room.  It's everything in me to not jump out of that car and help her do all of those things she's been doing for months now.

    Kendall is a shy girl.  She is quiet and reserved if she's not at home.  She listens to her teachers and respects them. Sometimes she can even come across like she's being rude or doesn't want to be friends because she's too busy following the rules.  Kendall's card has been on green all year and her teachers say she is such a pleasure to have in class.  The fact that she is so timid, especially in new situations, makes me just want to go pull her out of that school and never let her go.  When I think about myself in her shoes I get scared and intimidated for her.

    And, geez, I get emotional driving passed her preschool. We don't drive by it very often but when we do I, again, feel like part of my heart is missing.  That phase of life is over. There will be no more adorable preschool performances, no more field trips to the apple orchard, no more hearing her talk about dressing the frog for the weather.  Thank goodness I have Jamesy baby.

    I think the reason it's so sad to watch my sweet girl leave my truck each day isn't because I'm scared for her.  It's not because I miss her.  I do feel all those things {and then some}. But the real reason I feel like part of my heart is missing when she walks away is because time.  Where has the time gone?

    I'm not sure how I have a kindergartner.  I know all moms say that at various stages of life but it's true at each one.  Also they aren't kidding when they say "the days are long but the years are short".  I feel like I could get that saying tattooed across my face. My days feel long, most of the time, it's true.  I find myself running out of fun mom things to do and then I feel like I'm failing my kids.  But then I sit down when the house is quiet {so not often} and I realize I have a two {and a half}-year-old and a five {and a half}-year-old and I just want to know how?!

    Time is not our friend, as mothers.  It's cruel actually.  Also is Timehop, man I have such a love/hate relationship with that app.  You mean to tell me it's been TWO YEARS since I held a teenie tiny baby?  No!  It was just yesterday, I swear.  A year ago Kindergarten was just a mere blip on the radar.  So much can change in a very short amount of time.

    I really love the stage of life we are in right now. I do.  James is, for the most part, out of his awful stage that lasted nearly two years.  He's a fun boy, he really is.  He makes me laugh on the daily  and he will give me a kiss on demand, every time.  He is rough and tumble and full of energy but he brings so much joy to our family.  Kendall is independent enough but dependent enough all at the same time.  She loves trying out new tasks like pouring herself a bowl of cereal.  She has her own little friends that aren't just my friends children.  She loves to come home and tell me about her day at school, who got their card flipped and what new song they learned in music class.  The two of them have a really fun relationship and it's really cool to watch {most of the time}.

    That still doesn't change the fact that every morning, when Kendall goes to Kindergarten, I feel a piece of my heart go with her.  I hope she feels it in the heart I draw in the peanut butter in her sandwich.  I hope she sees it when I put a picture of our family in her lunch box each day.  I hope she knows how much I mean it when I tell her I love her.

    Man this kids getting older/parenting stuff is deep.

    January 27, 2016

    SO WHAT! Wednesday

    This week I'm saying SO WHAT if...

    • I've been up since 3:30 am so I fully intend on taking a nap today.
    • I love how much James loves Star Wars mainly because I know how happy it makes Jimmy.
    • I'm baking bacon in the oven for the first time ever, I'm nervous about it.
    • Whenever I drive by Kendall's preschool I get a little sad.
    • I want to be Bob Harper's {Biggest Loser} best friend.  Love him.
    • I *kinda* got sad that the snow storm missed us this weekend.  Just for a second.  Like a nanosecond.  
    • I started doing IIFYM {loosely} last week...I kinda love it.
    • I never plan on taking my kids blankie/lovey away from them.  Jimmy and I still have ours and we turned out just fine.  I think.
    • I'm really proud of myself for doing this #yogacamp. I mean we're going on almost 31 consecutive days of yoga practice. It has changed me inside and out.
    • I've already started shopping for new bathing suits...
    • I'm considering renewing my Sirius/XM radio only to listen to Dr. Laura every afternoon.  #nerdalert
    • I prefer Panera's coffee to Starbucks.
    • I'm really excited to help Kendall make her very first card box for Valentine's Day.
    • I want two dishwashers in my kitchen and could use two dishwashers in my kitchen.
    • I really love watching Kendall with Bear.  She is like a little dog whisperer, so sweet.
    • I love that Jimmy and I each have a mini me.
    What are you saying SO WHAT to this week?

    January 25, 2016

    Super Food, Super Snack

    You guys I have such a yummy treat to share with you today!

    As you {may} know I have a major sweet tooth.  Cookies, especially chocolate chip, are my main weakness.  Some people crave salt, some people choose something a little more savory, I choose cookies.  Unlucky Lucky for me Kendall loves baking so we make chocolate chip cookies about once  a week.  The problem here is she only likes to make cookies for the dough {no judging} and that leaves me and James {Jimmy hates most sweets} to eat an entire batch of cookies.  Since I'd rather not have an already hyper toddler hopped up on sugar, I take one for the team and eat them all.  Yep, all of them.  In a matter of days too.  It's not pretty.


    I needed to find a healthy alternative to all these cookies I was consuming.  So that I'm not the only one eating them {even though they're healthy doesn't mean you can eat the whole batch}, I wanted something I knew my kids would like too.  So, without further ado...

    Shakeology No-Bake Cookies

    1 cup all-natural peanut butter (or almond butter)
    1 cup quick cooking oats
    ½ cup raw honey
    1 cup Chocolate Shakeology

    1. Combine peanut butter, oats, honey, and Shakeology in a medium bowl; mix well.
    2. Roll mixture into 24 balls, each about 1-inch in size.
    3. Flatten each slightly so that it is shaped like a traditional cookie. 

    Nutritional Information (per serving):
    Calories: 112
    Fat: 6g
    Protein: 5 
    Carbohydrate: 12 g