February 23, 2015

Birthday Week

Today officially kicks off my birthday week.

What?  You don't celebrate your birthday all week?

On Saturday I turn 32.

I think?  Anyone else have a hard time remembering their age?

As I approach my 2nd year in my thirties I do not dread it, I'm not lying about my age {yet}, but rather I am looking forward it.  I don't look forward to getting older, don't get me wrong, but I am looking forward to my 32nd birthday.

That sounds confusing.

Miss Carrie Bradshaw said it best, “Enjoy yourself. That’s what your 20s are for. Your 30s are to learn the lessons. Your 40s are to pay for the drinks.”  However, I didn't enjoy my 20s like I should have and I kinda sorta regret that.  I didn't go on a girls only trip with my closest friends, I didn't party the nights away, I didn't travel abroad or pursue a hobby.  Instead I was in a weird place, bad relationships, trying to find myself, looking for love in all the wrong places, insecure.  I wasn't enjoying myself,  I was always trying to fast forward to the good stuff so I wasted those "fun years".  

If there's one thing I teach Kendall it will be to enjoy life the moment it happens.  Stop waiting for the pot at the end of the rainbow because you're going to miss THIS.  And life is too short to miss out on any of it, listen to your mama.

So now that I'm in my thirties I feel like I've got a lot to do.  I need to make up for all that fun I missed out on in my twenties AND those lessons.  It's OK though, really.

I feel more confident now than I ever have.  I'm in the best shape of my life.  I eat {relatively} well.  I take care of myself.  I am more adventurous with my "style".  I don't care so much about what other people think.  I challenge myself more.  I have lots of love in my life.  I finally have a hobby and goals.  And, most importantly, I am happy and I feel like I am right where I'm supposed to be. It's really a great feeling. 

I can remember reading magazines in my teens and twenties and I'd always see articles about women in their thirties feeling this same way.  I always thought, I can't wait to feel that way, it sounded so freeing.  Imagine, to finally feel like you are where you're supposed to be and to be HAPPY? Who wouldn't want that?  

Well it took thirty-some years but I'm finally there.  

You know, "they" say, "you're only as old as you feel"?  Well I'm glad because I feel younger and more alive now than I ever did in my twenties. So bring it on, thirty-two, I'm ready for you.