September 21, 2012

It Was Good For The Soul

It was just what I needed, what we needed.  Yesterday I had a day to myself and after the week from hell it was just what the doctor ordered.  My mother-in-law will never know how much I appreciate the gift she gave me.  The gift of sanity.
It's no joke that we are struggling around here.  Financially, emotionally, mentally we are spent.  Jimmy has been working 60+ hours a week since we got back from vacation and I have been dealing with The Terrible Twos and a sick dog and I just needed a break.  That break came in the form of a day to get my hair cut, go to the mall, drink Starbucks and catch up with my best friend.  Perfect day in my book.
I know what you're thinking, "wow that sounds like an expensive day!".  Well, my friends, I didn't spend a dime.  I have earned, yes earned, so many "stars" via my Starbucks app to qualify me for a free drink {for inquiring minds I tried a PSL again and didn't hate it as much but I still prefer my SCM}.  Score!  I had something that needed returned to H&M and came home with some {f}Uggs for Kendall in exchange.  Score!  I got a gift card for the salon for my birthday that still had money left on it, just enough for a cut.  Score!  The only downside of this day was the "wine headache" I had from the night before.
I got to snuggle a sweet 3-month-old while giving her mama a break to eat lunch.  That may have been the highlight of my day.  Yes it was either that or the fact that I had 2 hours of friend conversations that weren't interrupted by "Kendall don't touch that", "I love you, you love me", or "be gentle with baby Norah".  Yes, I think the conversation won the day for me. It was so refreshing to sit with my friend, outside, on a gorgeous fall afternoon and shoot the breeze.  I don't know if she knows how badly I needed that.
On my way home I drove in silence. Why?  Because it's not often that I'm in my car where I get to chose the sound.  {For the past week I've been driving to Choo-Choo-Soul on repeat, if I hear "I like chocolate sauce on chocolate ice cream" one more time I may need a 12 step program.}  It was glorious.  The sun was shining and it was as if God was telling me, "it'll be alright".  And it will.
God doesn't give us more than we can handle, I truly believe that.  The thing is I needed this "break" to remember that.  He knew I needed that break and He sent my mother-in-law in to rescue me.
As I was driving home I felt refreshed.  I felt rejuvenated.  I felt like I could be a good mom and happy wife again, two things I feel like I've been failing at this past week.  Jimmy has come home to a over-stressed wife and Kendall has heard me yell more times than acceptable but after my MDO {mom's day out} I feel like I'm back in business.
Truth be told my problems aren't worth it.  At the end of the day God has provided for us and he will take care of us.  I don't know how but that's not for me to know, He knows.  I need to remember that, trust in Him and know that we will be taken care of.
I'm thankful for yesterday. Thankful to my mother-in-law for keeping Kendall.  Thankful to my stylist for giving me a relaxing morning.  Thankful for the weather for being so damn gorgeous.  Thankful to my best friend for inviting me over to chat.  Thankful.  I am thankful.

16 comments:

  1. So glad you got a day off - that is so important! Hugs friend, I'm praying that God shows you some answers soon... But am grateful for an afternoon of peace for you! Hugs!!

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  2. I'm so glad you had a refreshing and relaxing day! Totally deserved. Sometimes when you're in the midst of a stressful day with a tantrum-throwing toddler and money issues etc etc etc it's easy to lose your cool. I've had MANY of these moments this past week. We too are struggling in more ways than one, but like you said, learning to trust God will help ease our anxieties and I know that He will provide for us if we put our faith in Him. Here's to hoping for a stress free weekend.

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  3. I love that I found your blog. I don't like reading blogs where everything is so perfect every day. Thank you for being "real" and honest. We all have our days and I thinking talking about it helps. Go glad your MIL was able to give you a day out that you certainly deserve. I'm going to treat myself to a haircut and highlight for my birthday in a couple weeks. I cannot wait! As much as I love my 20 month old and 4 week old, Mama needs a break :)

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  4. I am so glad you had a relaxing, recouping kind of day. We need those to keep our sanity. I love reading your blog everyday. You are so real and I can relate to you on so many levels. Financially, trying to baby number 2, etc. Thank you for writing like you do.

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  5. I am so emotional today that this made me cry. LOL! I know exactly how you feel and we all need that break. we need to be 'us' again without the 'mommy' attached to it all.the.time. I'm so glad you were able to have that day and to feel better. you deserve it.

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  6. Good for you, it sounds like you totally needed it! There is nothing like a little alone time with a fresh haircut to make you feel like a new person. Grandparents are an awesome gift :)

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  7. So glad you got the much needed and deserved time off for yourself. It definitely sounds like it rejuvenated you, which is awesome.

    I don't think I've told you yet but I love the new blog layout! I know you did it a little while ago but I don't think I've said anything about it yet. Shame on me! ;-)

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  8. Glad you were able to take some time for yourself! You definitely deserve it!

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  9. Glad you got a day to yourself. Sounds like you are refreshed and ready to go.

    I can't wait to be able to put my little girl in uggs. Ha I think they are so cute on little people. :)

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  10. I don't even have a kid and can appreciate a nice "me" day, so I imagine it must feel extra great for you! :) I'm glad you had the chance to recharge and refresh.

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  11. Sometimes when I just need to recharge, I wait til my husband gets home from work and then I go sit at Panera for 1 hour and read/drink a fountain diet soda the size of my head. If I'm feeling fancy I get a cookie. It's just so nice sometimes to have that alone time and amazing how little it takes to get nice and refreshed. Good for you (and your MIL!) for taking the time to do that yesterday!

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  12. Thinking of you...and wanting to know more about this Starbucks app....

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  13. So glad that you got this refreshing day! You really did need it after your week or two of crazy shit sandwiches. Here's hoping that you never NEED one of those days again but that you'll get to take them anyway!

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  14. Just reading this, Shannon! But you are SO right! I'm so glad you got a day to realize that. Keeping you in my prayers. :-) God will ALWAYS provide!

    Xo,
    Kenz

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