October 23, 2012

Fat Tuesday

Want to talk about a kick in the pants?

This week I got an email from Femme Fitale Fit Club saying that they saw my transformation on Pinterest.  Whoa!  Me?  How flattering!  So nice!  OMG!  {just a few of my reactions to this news}

And then I hopped on the scale.  You guys, these hips DO lie...I'm up a good 17 pounds since I hit my goal this time last year.  Holy guacamole!  I mean, wow.  I was shocked.  OK more like mortified.  It's not like I didn't know how this happened, I knew exactly how it happened.  I stopped tracking and clearly I wasn't ready.  When I say I stopped tracking I mean the day I hit my goal I stopped.  Like cold turkey.  Fail.

Remember the 300/30 Day Ab Challenge?  Yeah haven't done it in months.  I actually can't even look at the results of that challenge because it depresses me.  No, really.  Sucks to admit but it's the truth and sometimes the truth hurts.  I have even seen pictures of me from last fall/winter and my face looked so skinny!  I want that skinny face back!

I am mad at myself because I just really gave up and gave in, exactly what got me overweight in the first place.  I clearly wasn't ready to trust that I learned everything I needed to in the 7 months prior. I just wasn't.  I mean I guess I thought I was going to be that girl that lost it and then became a skinny girl with a rocking metabolism and never needed to work out again.  Wrong.

As we prepare to get pregnant again I really want to start out the next pregnancy being fit.  I was a slob when I was pregnant with Kendall, truth city.  It was like the minute I saw those two pink lines I just forgot what a gym was.  I told myself that I was going to be that cute pregnant lady on the treadmill with her hardy noticeable bump, yeah that wasn't the case.  But this time, this time will be different.  Starting yesterday.

I don't know what it was about yesterday but I was fed up.  I was frustrated.  I was tired of going to bed feeling fat and sloppy.  I think that the reason my skin has been so 13-year-old-girl lately is because of my poor diet and lack of exercise too.  I mean sure I've hopped on the treadmill here and there and walked on an incline and called it a workout but I barely busted a sweat.  

Yesterday I felt the fire again.  I wanted to really work out.  So at nap time that's just what I did.  I didn't do another 5k, not yet, but I did run for nearly 30 minutes straight, albeit a bit slower but I ran nonetheless.  It felt good.  There, I said it.  As much as I despise running, it felt good to actually push myself, even when I wanted to stop, and finish what I started.  

Another thing I realized was good lord it takes a lot of time on the treadmill to burn of 6 mini brownies.  Not worth it!  So with that in mind I think I will be better with my food intake.  Oh and I started tracking, officially, 100% of the time.  It worked before and it can work now.  

So while we are still without child I am going to focus on me.  I think that has been part of the reason I've fallen off the wagon too.  I kept thinking "this will be our month" and so I've allowed myself to have ice cream with Kendall or mac & cheese bites because I wanted to get something that I could share with her.  Terrible excuse and that's already setting my next pregnancy up for failure in the staying fit department.  

Since I don't know when Baby Dew #2 is going to show up and that it out of my control this is something I can control.  I need to get it under control so that I don't gain another 40 lbs this time around.  Girls, I was pushing 200 the day I went in to have KP.  Not happening this time!  So hopefully, depending on when we conceive, I can drop a few pounds and then maintain at least walking on the treadmill throughout.  That is my hope anyway.  Remind me of this when I'm battling the first trimester sleepies.

Now, I'm not going all hardcore weight loss/workout.  There will be no 300/30 Day Ab Challenge.  There's not even going to be a weekly update on my progress.  This is just something I want to do, for me.  Sure I'm sure you'll hear about it in a SWW here and there or maybe I'll link-up with a Fitness Friday somewhere but that's about it.  

Wish me luck.  I know I did it before and so I can do it again.  Here's to dropping those unwanted 17 lbs the good ole fashion way.  Here's to feeling better!

21 comments:

  1. Even if you're running slowly, you're moving faster than you would be on the couch! KICK ASS GIRL!

    LB
    www.accordingtol.com

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  2. you can do it. I have gained SO much weight but guess what, when I started looking at what I'm putting in my mouth, my weight gain has stopped (for now). I know I'm going to gain more but it really is 80% diet!

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  3. I feel ya....hit my goal and have gained 10 pounds! I stopped tracking and working out for a couple months and I can really tell a difference. Im trying to get back into the swing of things but its hard! You got this :)

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  4. I was at the gym about 4 days a week with my "barely noticeable bump" all throughout my pregnancy and still gained 60 pounds and the only reason my bump was barely noticeable was because the rest if me was so big. Only about 13 more lbs to lose though so it's coming off pretty easily.

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  5. Good luck sweet thing - you can do it!

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  6. You go girl!!! When we got married last year and got our wedding pictures back, I bawled. Cried. Acted like a child going through the trouble 2's. I hate those pictures. It's the best day of my life and I hated how I looked. A week later, I started using MyFitnessPal and kicked my ass into gear. I lost 26 pounds before we found out we were pregnant in February. I can not tell you how happy I was to be feeling and looking better but the best part is that now at 39 weeks and 6 days, I'm only 4 pounds heavier than I was on my wedding day. Holy shit, right? Keep your head in the weight loss game and now that with every pound you lose, every bite you take and step you walk/run, you are doing what is best for you, Kendall, Jimmy and baby #2

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  7. I think we are on the same wavelength! You've got this!! :)

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  8. YOu can do it girl!!!!! I keep you in check on MFP!!!!

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  9. You can totally do it! And I need to make this change too. I have just really gotten off the healthy train since Will was born. Yet again, thanks for the motivation to make changes in my own life!

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  10. Good luck! Sometimes it just takes getting in the right mindset and it sounds like you got it.

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  11. You can do it!! You were a huge part of me deciding to get healthy and I know you'll get back there! Excited for you!

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  12. Way to get back to it, lady. In the end, even though the baby weight has felt a little frustrating for me to lose this time, it is still a much less daunting task than it was before and do not regret losing weight then getting pregnant. Made for a better pregnancy and I looked a little more decent afterwards than first time around. I think you'll feel the same! You still do look great, though!

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  13. Good for you! Everything I read about getting pregnant last time around said it's best when you are at your best. So go into knowing that everything you do now will make it easier after! I've been doing (after Pinning it of course) the pre shower workout. I usually shower in the mornings I think it's helping my metabolism- 50 jumping jacks, 5 push ups (I even get off my knees for these since it's only 5), 20 crunches, 30 mountain climbers (BLEH!), and 30sec plank. I just do it while the water warms up. Good luck girl!!

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  14. HELL TO THE YES!!! You can do this, girl. Sweat is your friend. I love when i see you "like" my obnoxious fitness stuff on IG .. i get all star-struck. For reals. Yes. I'm THAT girl. anyway, i'm getting off track. YOU CAN DO THIS! SO proud of you. And yes I LOL'ed at the title.

    Totally in it to support you!!! :)

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  15. I better see your cute mommy ass linking up with me on Fitness Friday one of these days!!!!! I know you don't feel it, but I think you look great Shan. Life gets in the way of everything sometimes. But your run today kicked some serious bootie and I think that's all the momentum you'll need...you got this girlfriend!!!! Hot Pregnant Mama comin up!!!

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  16. You can do it girl!!!! I am literally kicking myself in the arse for not being more healthy while trying to get preggers and during the pregnancy with Miss P! Granted I am losing now but I so know how you feel! Tracking what I eat has been the biggest thing to help me...

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  17. Yay for you Shannon!! Nothing but good things can come to you (and Baby Dew #2) when you put your health first. I'll be a groupie cheerleader and encourage & support you along the way. You look awesome anyway but it's about feeling good too. Good luck girl!

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  18. I'm glad you decided to do this! I went to the doctor today (just posted the blog about it) and thought about you when she mentioned most couples if everything is perfect take about 4 months to conceive. I'm also guessing the acne could be your hormones adjusting.

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  19. I so need to get in an exercise routine here! Ugh, just the thought of it!

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  20. I'm right there with you lady... I have slacked off in a big way lately and I'm paying for it. I just can't seem to find my motivation. Ugh. Get it girl and while you're doing it, kick my ass back into shape too please!

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