November 11, 2013

Mom's Rule!

Now that The Huffington Post has gotten a hold of this video I'm sure you've seen it but I just couldn't NOT share it.  It moved me to the point of tears while I was sitting by myself in Starbucks.

A New Perspective For Moms from Elevation Church on Vimeo
My cousin-in-law {is that a thing?}  sent it to me a couple of weeks ago and she couldn't have sent it at a more perfect time.  I was feeling defeated, like motherhood had literally handed me my ass on a platter.  I had just gotten home from Florida and if you have traveled with small children you know a "vacation" is really just regular life in a different location.  Hunting season had started, leaving me a hunting widow and I was just on the verge of a mental breakdown.  

A week later, while I was at the supermarket, Jimmy sent me the same video. When I got home I let him know that I had seen it earlier and that it brought tears to my eyes and he told me that the same was true for him.  He was holding a sleeping Baby James on his chest and he said that he really realized what "we", mothers, really do.  He went on to say that our job is the only one that never ends, ever. From the moment our feet hit the ground until we pass out at 9 o'clock after tucking everyone in. It never ends.

It's the most rewarding job to see your children grow and become their own person but it's also the most tiring. It's the only job where I've ever felt like I'm not good enough.  I question myself and my abilities on a daily basis and often times feel like I'm failing.  Failing my children because I feel like some days I just don't have what it takes.  Failing myself because being a mother is all I wanted and here I am wondering if I am even worthy.  

After I watched this I asked Kendall, "what's your favorite thing to do with mommy?" and she said, "I like to cook with you!".  And you bet your bottom dollar that I've been letting her help me cook ever meal from that moment on.  I was just happy that she said something positive and had a favorite thing to do with me, let alone it's my favorite thing to do with her. 

I was nervous even asking her such a question because I feared the response.  I was afraid she was going to say something crushing. Something about me yelling too much or putting her in time-out.  I remembered this video and I remembered that kids are happy little beings and they are always the optimists, usually.  And I realized that even though I feel like all I'm doing is a bad job, I'm really not.  And neither are you.
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10 comments:

  1. So when I get off work tonight, I'm going to ask Boomer what her favorite thing is :)

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  2. Being a mom of a 2 year old and 8 months pregnant with my 2nd, this makes me bawl! I struggle daily with "am i doing enough?" At least we are trying.. some kids aren't so lucky.

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  3. Great video! We all need a little reassurance sometimes.

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  4. I don't have kids but I am sitting here with eyes full of tears as I think about how much mothers do, about my mom, about my grandmother, and about the mom I hope to be one day. Thank you.

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  5. Wow, I hadn't seen this video yet. I love it. No kids of my own, but I'll be passing this along to my older sister, who's given me three amazing nieces and one handsome little prince of a nephew. I love that Kendall's response to your question happened to be your favorite thing to do with her, as well. Your little lady loves you; keep up the good work!

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  6. Saw this and yeah I cried like a baby back bitch :) I love it. I cannot wait until D actually puts sentences together (maybe I'll regret it once it starts ha). Makes me feel like, maybe I'm not totally ruining his life :)

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  7. I saw this last week and totally cried. It's beautiful!

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  8. I want to share this with every mom everywhere. :)

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  9. I totally teared up the first time I saw this. I've watched it several times since.

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