May 27, 2014

Life=Complete

Do you ever have moments when you look at your life and you say, "Yeah, I feel complete.  I have everything I need.  I want for nothing."?

That's how I feel right now.  Complete. Satisfied.  Happy.

I feel like for a while we were always thinking about the future, waiting for the next big thing to happen.  We got married then we immediately thought about starting a family.  That happened quickly and so thinking about buying a house became the next order of business.  Then there was a big career change for me {working mom turned SAHM}.  Then it was time to think about adding to our family again.

Whew.  That all happened in three short, quick years.

Lately we've been toying with the idea of moving.  My husband keeps tabs on Zillow quite often and has seen a significant increase on the value of our house.  We intended on staying in our current house, our first house, for at least 5-7 years when we bought it and right now we've lived here four.  Perhaps we're just bored because we have no other life changes coming up but it's something we've been considering for the last month or so.

And then it hit me.  No, I don't want to move. I am comfortable here, in this house, in this stage of life, and I don't want to change it.  Moving would cause so much chaos and unnecessary stress that I'm just not
prepared to deal with right now in my state of contentment.

Our house may not be Pinterest worthy but it's perfect for us.  We've not outgrown it, by any means, so moving would just be for a change of scenery, more or less. Sure I still dream of a bigger, more beautiful house, and one day we will have one but for now this house is perfect for us.  There are things I want to change, fix, replace and those things are all a heck of a lot easier and cheaper than buying or building a new home.

Not only do I find contentment in our home but in myself as well. Weight loss journeys are difficult to go through.  I've never been overweight, per se, except for after my babies were born.  It's no secret that my body knows how to gain weight when it's with child and so after they were born I was left with this very unfamiliar reflection in the mirror.  I've busted my butt for months now and I'm happy to say that I'm finally in a good place with myself too.  I still have work to do and my body is far from perfect but it's the best it's been and I've worked hard to get here.

I also know that our family is complete.  I know, I know, I said that after Kendall was born and now look! But for real, guys. James has completed our family and has also made me realize that, while babies are so sweet, I don't do babies.  That may sound harsh considering he still IS a baby but I much more enjoy the preschooler age.  That's not to say I don't love my chunky little man but I do long for the days that he is older, more independent, verbal because I know it will make him such a happier child.  With that being said, I don't care to start over with another baby ever again.

I can't remember another time in my life that I've felt this sense of peace and fulfillment.  I have everything I've wanted and most importantly everything I need.

13 comments:

  1. it's a good feeling. I can't say I'm totally there right now--because of the house thing. But I still feel ok being here for a little longer. sweet pic of you and james :)

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  2. I think it's really easy to feel like once one big thing happens, there needs to be something else big to focus on. I feel the same way right now. We moved, got married, and now I'm enjoying the contentedness of getting our house together and just being. It's so important to just stop and smell the roses and be appreciative!

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  3. Enjoy lady:) That's the stage we've been in since Charlie was born. I do get a little antsy about not having anything big on the horizon occasionally, but for the most part, it's so sweet to feel so fulfilled:)

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  4. Good for you! Isn't it amazing to feel that way, to just be happy and content?! I've been having so many feelings about the exact same thing lately and it's crazy to come on here the day after I write a similar post to find that another person is just loving life right now. Love the little snuggle pic btw, super adorbs.

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  5. There must be no better or content feeling. You can be so happy and so proud of yourself my friend - you have achieved and accomplished so much in life and happy to say you are happy and complete. x

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  6. I can't wait to get to that content feeling. We are in need of a home, one that is ours and not one that is in a trust and if god forbid something happen to grandma we be left homeless or with a $2000 rent payment. I have days I feel complete but we have a long way to go.

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  7. I feel the same way right now. Of course, I'm still pregnant with baby #2, but everything just feels 'right.' Obviously we are so excited for her to get here, but we honestly have no big plans on the horizon after her birth. We've toyed with the idea of moving for 2-3 years because we don't love our house. But...we've decided that we REALLY, REALLY like our house. So, we've been making small changes here and there to make it more 'ours' and I can honestly say that I think we're falling more in love with it! It's a great school district, plenty of room for our little family, etc... Even though I get uneasy when we have no 'plans,' I think I'm finally at that point where not having a 'next big thing' is actually comforting! Glad you are so content!

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  8. I think it's awesome that you've worked to where you wanted to be and now that your there, your accepting, grateful, satisfied, and HAPPY! Good for you and your family! Such an awesome feeling! I feel like my husband and I are finally getting to that point too!

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  9. treasure it. I find that a lot of time, in this day and age, there is a constant need for people to look to the next big thing when the next big thing is sitting right there- it is those simple joys and contentment that make life so much better. :)

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  10. I'm so glad you are content. But, it's true--home is where the heart is, and your heart is truly there.

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  11. And I'm total opposite. Can't wait for babies and buying a house. You look happy too.

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